Fifteen years ago I was fifty pounds overweight. I was wallowing in a self destructive cycle of unhappiness and overeating and likely depression. I was unfit. I was struggling to keep my shit together all the while putting up the public front that my life was perfect. Life was not so good.
Sixteen months after the birth of my fourth baby, I took on my first marathon. Still horrendously overweight, out of shape and undertrained, I did it. I finished the Marine Corps Marathon in 5 hours and 45 minutes with a stress fracture in my hip, debilitating shin splints, and a sense of “if I can do this I can do anything”.
My path since my first marathon has been circuitous, to say the least. I’ve been in and out of shape. I’ve been super motivated and I’ve been stuck in a rut. There were periods when I didn’t love exercise so much. Where just dragging my overweight, out of shape body to the gym or even outside to walk was a chore…painful. I struggled, and continue to struggle, with my weight. What has evolved from all of this…from my path towards a variety of finish lines both in sports and in life, is a desire to be better and a belief that no matter what the obstacle, in some way that may not be my plan, I can finish the race.
I developed this blog last year to share my trials and tribulations in training for the New York City marathon. It didn’t materialize. I finished the marathon but the blog fell flat. I’ve shared much of my experiences via social media and I’ve gotten great feedback. I’m morphing my two blogs into one that uses training and competing in endurance events as a metaphor for life. My goal is to share the experience of training for and completing a variety of athletic endeavors with hopes to 1) motivate even just one person to take on and work towards a new goal and 2) share the weaknesses and vulnerabilities of a 40 something woman because, well, it’s just nice to know you’re not alone.
I love to compete and I love to push my body further than my 45-year-old mind thinks I should. 6 months ago I was resigned to the fact that although completing an Ironman was on my bucket list, I just didn’t have the time or toughness to do it. News flash…I’m signing up for and I AM GOING TO complete a full Ironman in 2017.
My goal might be different than someone else’s but the important point is…have a goal. Anything. Work towards that goal. Make yourself better. Be grateful for everything that IS going well. Enjoy the journey.